The "benevolence" of "god"

I, for one, am sick and tired of hearing about the benevolence of the Xian "god." If he
does exist, this being must have a PR department that makes the boys in Washington
cream their jeans just thinking about them. By claiming to have created all of existence,
"god" admits that he is personally responsible for disease, natural disaster, and other
catastrophes. But the closest he ever comes to being at fault for any of it is the
enigmatic "the lord works in mysterious ways." All of the glory and none of the
responsibility...

                             I WANT THAT JOB!!!

I know there are some hard core fanatics who were told from birth that "god" only
does good things, and that the devil is responsible for all of the bad stuff that happens.
Well I have only one thing to say to those people - HAVE YOU EVER ACTUALLY
READ YOUR BIBLE?

There are numerous references to the "good" things that "god" does. Don't believe me?
Just ask the people of Sodom and Gomorrah. Ask the people Noah didn't let on the
boat. Are you trying to convince me that even the children of Sodom and Gomorrah
were "evil"? Do you mean to say that Noah was the only "good" person on earth?
Because I don't buy it!

How about the first born sons of Egypt? What did they do to deserve the wrath of the
father of benevolence? What horrible crime did these children commit? Am I to believe
that "god," who is "gracious and just," would punish these children for the sins of their
parents? And not every Egyptian was responsible for the enslavement of the Israelites,
yet the first born son of EVERY Egyptian family was slain. How does "god" justify
that?

I know the fanatics among you are foaming at the mouth waiting to spring your
favorite defense... "but that was in the old testament..." So fucking what! Are we to
absolve "god" of all his past crimes? As far as I know, this "god" has yet to pay his
debt to society. Or did I just miss his parole hearing.

I would also like to remind those chosen few that the old testament is also where the
ten commandments are written. If part of the old testament is invalid, than the
remainder must be as well. After all, how can we selectively believe portions of a
"divinely inspired" piece of literature?

Does this grace allotted to the "creator" extend to us? Can I kill someone and show up
to court with a prism and a flashlight to show I am sorry? That's what the rainbow was
all about. Your "god" killed several hundreds of thousands of people, but, to say he
was sorry, he gave us a rainbow and said, "I'll never kill everyone again." How fucking
gracious of him...

But for the sake of argument, let's take a brief glance at the new testament. That's the
book were "god" sends his son to be slain so that you can be forgiven of sin. That may
sound like a great thing, but think about it for a second.

1) All people are born with sin. Don't be mad at me. It's Xian doctrine. (Mary alone
was said to be born with out the burden of "original sin." That's what the "immaculate
conception" means. Sorry to disappoint you. The other thing that you have been calling
"immaculate conception" is actually "virgin birth." Don't feel too badly though. I know
priests who get that one wrong.)

2) The only way "god," an all powerful being who once said "let there be light" and
commanded the sun to shine, could find it in his "gracious and just" heart to forgive the
shortcomings of man, a being whose creation he is solely responsible for, was to create
a son and then have him murdered as part of some enigmatic "divine plan."

3) The actual bible verse that talks about this has a lot to say about the mentality of
"god." It reads: "For god so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son. So that
whoever believes in him shall not perish, but have everlasting life." So our choice is
accept this drivel or die. They seem to over look that "or die" part don't they?

Now you may think me bitter. Well I am. You see, I had sex with my wife during her
period, and, according to Leviticus 15:24, I was unclean for 7 days. On the eighth day
I was supposed to bring two doves to the tent of the lord's presence and give them to
the priest who would offer one as a burn offering and on as a sin offering. But I
couldn't find the tent. I looked everywhere. It seems this tent is not in Green Bay,
Wisconsin.

But, I wasn't truly an opponent of the Xian faith until I had children of my own. Then
I recalled this little beauty. Matthew 10: 35-37 for those of you following along at
home.

"For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her
mother, and the daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. And a man's foes shall be
they of his own household. He that loveth father or mother more than me is not
worthy of me: and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me."

I know that this is going to sound sappy. Well too bad. No one could replace the
feeling you get when those kids run to meet you at the door after a hard day's work.
My children love me unconditionally. They don't care if I don't give enough offering
on Sunday. They don't care how much I prayed. All they know is that daddy is home.

Then I look into the eyes of my 3 year old daughter or my 1 year old son and I ask
myself how "god," or his bastard son, could intend to set us against each other. What
kind of being would do that? And how is that in the best interest of my children or me?

There is not one single creature in all of existence that holds more of my heart than
those two children. If that is the price that the Xian "god" demands than fuck him! I
can handle the spiritual extortion they refer to as offering. I can sit through sermons ad
nauseam. But I can not love those children any less and it is impossible for me to love
anything more.